How's my favorite community doing?
I felt like making a post, updating what's going on and what has went on the past year.
After all one of the uses of these communities is to express myself and also use it as a personal diary where I can look back and see the changes I went through.
Damn, These past two years where one hell of a ride. My father who is my best friend went to Jail. This devastaed me and my family. Leaving behind a family of 5 to take care of themselves or shall I say 4? Since I moved out of my family's house a couple of years ago, still it wasn't easy. I had to be there for my mother and sisters while going to jail visits twice a week and taking clothes and food to him every day.
Huge fines where hitting my family while he was imprisoned, making shit heavier for my mother to handle, she totally lost it. I can still hear the screams of her and my sisters when we go the news, man I'm getting chills. All of this and I still tried to keep doing what I love, Animation.
Which is also my bread and butter.
Needless to say, I wasn't doing good with that either, I wasn't getting any commisions or freelance work nor I was getting any major views.
Lighten up! My father got out of jail, he's still on probational parole so anything illegal and and he'll go back to the cell. Also if you're wondering he's no murderer, he was convicted of electrical hacking.
I also received some major projects to work on which sorted me out for a while.
I was working with this company in LA where we worked on a series pitch. I was the animator and created a 6-7 minute mini-pilot episode that's being pitched around. It was like a 4 month working period where I designed characters, concepts and animated the mini-pilot. I learnt so much in those days and it helped pay the bills, hence why I stopped being active online.
I also had the opportunity to do a commisioned animation for PewdiePie, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qRWy0FjfKRA which got me a little more following and exposure. I really needed that man. I really work hard for what I do and sacrifice a lot.
I feel bad for my girlfriend and my very few friends, I wish I could give them more time but this is the only way for me to be a better person, friend, lover and if I ever make it big I will make these people's lives a better one and help growing artists in every way I can.
With that said, the pattern of the past led me to :
Sitting here, smoking, writing this post while my woman is upset downstairs cos she wants to binge watch on Da Vinci's Demons with me but her friend is coming over and she just wants to 'Netflix and chill'' ? minus the Netflix.
Just finished my latest Halloween Sketch, it's frontpaged ''SpectraI Conflict'' Loved the response it got. I'm also planning on my next sketch and I think I'm going for another episode of my ''Biggest Fan'' mini-series, damn those get popular for sure. I'm not much of a parody guy but I found my way to work around parodies and be real to myself. ''Biggest Fan'' gives me the opportunity to not make a lame ass recycled parody like the 100000000000's you find on the internet, which I might have fell victim of in Mario's BIggest fan but this is different. It follows the fanatics, and how being a fanatic can take you to extremes. I feel like it's more of it being a parody about Fanaticism rather than the super heroes/fiction characters.
I'm also slowly going broke again but hey, I still have something to eat for the week and a place to sleep, that's luxury compared to other situations you can end up in life.
I'm also embracing all the support and getting to know new people and artists I've been encountering lately. You guys seriously lift my spirits and I thank technology for connecting us together, I've got to know some amazing people that I'm down to visit someday.
So yeah, keep the love going (and the criticism). This is a learning experience and one should always seek to grow. Each day is a new opportunity to expand the pattern of life which will lead us to :
Dude, what the fuck do I know about the future?
Infinite Possibilities. That's whatsup. I'm sounding like a hippie, in reality I may come across as a pessimist but I say I'm a realist. Neutral. Life taught me to be ready for anything. It's the biggest ride you'll ever get.
I don't know what will happen with me in the future, possibilities are endless from becoming something to becoming homeless but let's talk about the artistic future I would love to have and plans that might happen.
- I might become a Lead animator for a series, the same series I did the pitch for. I would be leading 3 teams that would be working on seperate episodes. Now there is a long way to go and this isn't even for sure but the Directors told me if I'm interested if the show sells. Youtube Premium service was already interested for 11 episodes 12 minutes each. I dont know, it's exciting and I would be paid highly but I've been a one man show for over a decade and working in a team, no, LEADING 3 teams makes me anxious.
I'm a very moody guy so I'll see how I feel about it when the time comes.
- Keep doing freelance work to survive and keep doing my thing like I already am, possibly getting major projects that set me good for a while.
- I think my ideal full-time job would be to be an Online Animator, having 100% creative freedom in my hands and making a living at the same time. I already do this for free, you say. Well I'll keep doing it as long as I can because it is my therapy, it is my role and it is what I love doing. Money is only needed to make things more comfortable for me to work on my online animations full time. I would make it a way that I'd be pumping an episode per week.
Some people are making it with Patreon, It didn't work for me yet.
I think part of this is because people never saw my face nor did I ever talk to the camera but this is one of the biggest challenges for me. My language is far from english, my accent is funny and I just don't feel like I'm myself on camera. I'm a man doing the work behind the curtains.
STILL, I will make an animation of myself talking to the viewers when it's the right time. I feel like this creates a sense of trust and credibility with the viewers and the creator.
Wow, I've been yapping and yapping and probably nobody's got the time to read all this shit but writing helps.
If you made it this far, congratulations. You're a reader.
Thanks for your time, it's the best thing you can give to someone else.
Danny Lesco aka MisterHerbal